Well, Ghahh!

I spent a good bit of time last night thinking up excuses.  I thought I’d share the list with you

  1. I was soooo hungry, I had to eat the pancake. I was shaking and going to pass out!   While that has been a very common occurrence and feeling for me, the reality is that I haven’t had a low blood sugar episode ONCE on this diet.
  2. I couldn’t remember if I ate my Ezekiel Bread this morning, and this was healthy so I went for it. Ummm, no.  I totally know what I ate, and that I did in fact splurge and have a Chickfila Salad with a client for lunch, too. I know exactly what I ate today.
  3. The pancake was made of organic ingredients. Oat Flour, Eggs, Baking Powder and coconut oil.  That’s healthy and I’m not going to be so die hard that I don’t allow myself a little reality eating.  This is somewhat true. I do believe that if I’m going to do this for 42 days I need to work in a few off meals where I allow myself the grace to eat outside the box. But it’s not going to be on a last minute whim. And if I’m standing around making all of these excuses up, then it’s clearly not something I should be doing.
  4. I didn’t have much time since I had a Momma laboring and would have to get to her soon.  While we were in lots of phone contact and I was prepared, she didn’t need me until late into the night.
  5. I have lost 14 pounds in one week.  I have decided that at the end of the week I deserve a little cheat. I planned it and wanted it, so that’s that.   I can’t lie like that. It was a total drive-by pancake gobbling up.
  6. Oh woe-es-me…I had a really bad day and sadly fell back into my sad, tragic habit of emotional eating.   This one has a little bit of truth to it, but come on.  I had a good day with one snag of petty-drama from someone else.  You can’t tell yourself that you are GOING to enjoy and Emotional Binge Pancake BEFORE you eat it, and then blame it on your lack of impulse control.
  7. No one is reading this blog at all, so who cares if I cheat? Or who cares if I’m not honest about my food for the day? I’m just a terrible liar. Can’t do it. I can be diplomatic, and I can wisely avoid. But I’m known for being up-front and honest. And when I’ve committed to be honest on something like this, I couldn’t sleep if I left that Pancake off of my Food Log.

As you can see, I ate a pancake.  The truth is that I’m enjoying this diet a lot. I’m allowing myself to savor so many flavors. I bought SCALLOPS!!! I adore scallops!!  But what is hard is just that little extra time in the kitchen on top of the time I spend making 4 lunches ever morning while I do breakfast, lunch for me and Eden, a different dinner for the kids and then for us. And the dishes……((faint)).  This wouldn’t be as hard if I wasn’t already overwhelmed by feeding 4 children with food allergies.  As I said, I love that all of my food allergies are removed by default with this diet.  It does not remove my children’s.   The time in the kitchen is totally “case sensitive” for me.

Anyway. I ate the pancake because I was bored, and it wasn’t important enough to me not to.   I did head out to a birth and was up most of the night.  I’m back right on track today and I really feel good.  I didn’t weigh because I had a rough morning getting carpool and forgot.  So, we’ll see what happens tomorrow.

Oh!  I did get  my 20 minutes of quality time with Jillian.  Travis was down another 1/2lb. 🙂

WHAT I ATE:

B: ezekiel bread, 3 egg whites.
S: Peach
L: Strip Salad at Chickfila, with the strips GRILLED.  Fat Free Honey Mustard Dressing.
S: Apple
D: Grilled Scallops, Peppers, onions and yellow squash.  And the Curs-ed Pancake

I also realized that I had the settings funny so no one could comment without having a wordpress ID.  Changed it! Please comment so I don’t feel so all alone!LOL

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4 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Bliss on August 19, 2010 at 4:29 pm

    Your honesty is refreshing! I think that thought process will lead you to success. I agree with point 3 – you are going to have to allow yourself indiscretions, but better that they are planned and purposeful, rather than mindless or desperate (the way mine typically are…) Bravo!

    Reply

    • I have thought about that. I think Travis are going to chose a night to be ‘date’ night and cheat a little. But not mindlessly like that, ya know? It was lame.

      But it was a gooooodddd pancake!

      Reply

  2. Posted by Kayla on August 20, 2010 at 12:38 am

    Yay! Now I can comment! Glad thats all figured out…I enjoy reading your journey!

    Reply

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